So its not exactly in the order i want it yet but...

1. this is a pic of me being lazy at a tennis match cause i didn't get good sleep. (ball was in play)

 2. this is a pic of how i felt my life was.

 3. represents being engulfed in darkness

 4. shows the light through being lost phase.

 5. pic of my facebook page

 6. how i felt after i got one. relaxed

 7. the puzzle pieces were put together

 8. represets staying connected.

9. represents me falling asleep on a competition day

10. my life felt scrambled due to time management

im not sure where i want the songs to play, but for now i want to play a slow song first so probably gravity by john mayer. and then a song to represent how i felt when i found Facebook so feeling good by micheal buble next. Its not my for sure selection, but for now i feel it'll work.

For my essay i am choosing "Gravity" by John Meyer because the words kind of talk about being brought down which is a little relevant to my speech. And "Feeling Good" by Michael Buble because it says what my topic made me feel at the time.

10 pics

                                                          Beginning of the song

                                                       more random messages

                                                     everybody having a good time

                                            band playing in the middle of a vast number of no-lifes

                                               reverts back to the party scene

                                                 things start flashing and party becomes hepatic

                                      no-lifes seize control by showing things on their faces

                                              girl trying to look away, but is forced to look

                                              bright commercial. color is appealing to eye.

                                              band themselves have converted to these beings

BYOB

Bring your own Beer. you would think this song is all about partying and a good time right? well it isn't at all. when i first saw the video for this song, i thought it was odd but i picked up on the point really quick. i feel System of a Down was talking about the government through out the video and how it is controlling us. the music video is really fast pace and repetitive which made the understanding part a little easier.
        The video starts off with the band jamming out in the middle of these walking no-life beings that show messages on their heads such as "die" and "buy." during this section, the lead singer is talking about how they control us with "hypnotic computers" and "feed us lies from the tablecloth." and the video did a good job of showing how the people were controlled.
        The video takes a sharp twist for the mid section and goes to a party where everyones going wild. the sharp change sort of just showed how people are having a good time. but the sharp change kind of leads me to believe that people arent thinking about the problems and how they just want to let loose instead. during this section, the singer is just repeating over and over everybody's going to the party have a real good time.
      The video changes back to a rapid pace giving us this sense of being controlled again. the singer says that they are breaking into fort knox stealing our intentions while this is going on. this is talking about how they take our thoughts away from us. And the video just seems hepatic while he is screaming the words.
      the next part goes back into the party but this time the walking no-life beings show up to the party and the video gets crazier. the singer starts yelling "why dont presidents fight the war" and "why do they always send the poor" which he repeats later in the video. The party dies down a little and the no-life beings start projecting television advertisements and shows and the party people are frozen watching the screens. this scene shows a little of how they think we are controlled as the people are helpless to the screens. and the singer keeps saying everyone is here just to have a good time while this is going on.
      Overall, the video gives the idea that life in society is controlled but we see life as a party. The band does a good job in the words they choose for the song because it sort of explains the video and whats happening. for me, the words that got me to understand were "you depend on our protection yet you feed us lies from the tablecloth" it got me thinking who are they referring to in the situation. and the lifeless beings walking around with the words "buy" on their face gave it away. the repetition of the song is helpful as well. it interchanges between the party scene and the lifeless being scene while repeating the same words. the repetition made their meaning clearer.

Lost in the dark

            I have always been kind of a messy guy since as long as I can remember. I wasn’t really organized and I consistently lost track of my priorities. I felt like my life was just scrambled around like a puzzle and I had nothing to keep me in the loop about things or get me organized. 

            Back in North Hardin High school, I was apart of the varsity tennis team, Marching Band and National honors society. I was really bad about showing up all the time. I showed up to my national honors society meetings late or completely just forgot and left school even when there was an announcement at the end of the day to remind us. For marching band practice, my band director never wasn’t mad at me on the field. The nights before practice, I wouldn’t get any sleep because I didn’t know there was practice. I got angry calls from my director and sister who helps out and the end result would be me an hour late and falling asleep while standing still with shades on. And the same thing applied for tennis. I would go to practice and be too tired to run or sling my racquet across the court. One time i pegged my partner five times in a row on my serves cause my form was bad and he just walked off the court to cool off. In each organization, I missed out on things that we were doing and had to play catch up all the time. It was a bit stressful.

 Being unorganized would set me back and I never would feel like I was doing my part. I use to try really hard to remember things or write stuff down, but it never helped. There was actually a time that I became complacent with not knowing and just constantly having to react instead of just being prepared. And it drove me crazy. I wanted to change, but I just kept settling on being lazy. There were times I would just shut down and skip even knowing what time to go because I didn’t want to react. It was like playing hide and seek with friends at night. You can't see anyone in the pitch black cause you don't know how to go about finding them or have a plan and by the time they run out it's too late to catch them and do anything. One thing that would have helped you see out of the dark situation and made you effective is a flashlight. 

The darkness of the game represents how lost i felt when i wasn't organized. The flashlight represents something i had access to that helped me out of the situation.  The "flashlight" that helped me come out of the "darkness" was Facebook. Facebook connected me to what was going on and was the light I was looking for to keep me out of the dark. With my Facebook account, I was able to stop reacting and know what was coming because my friends would post helpful reminders right before an event. And since it gets beamed to my phone, I knew immediately what was going on and could check fast if I needed to. My account has given me the comfort and ease I searched for. It was the answer to my ongoing question of “what’s going to happen next.” Facebook is my organizer. 

dislikes for tib

Asking the right  questions is about a chemist that lost his two year old son and asked the question whether what he was doing was effecting that. I didn't really enjoy the speech too much mostly because his point was a little buried and not clear. i still don't even know what it's truly about.
 his story with his sons death was emotional, but i didn't think it connected with his point about asking questions about chemists job. this is mostly because there is no definite correlation between his sons death and the chemicals as i read it. i kind of get that he's questioning the work field because of his son's death, but it didn't really make the connection. now i believe if there was a direct connection between the chemicals and his loss i would understand a little better.
Another reason i thought this didn't click with me is because i have no clue what that man has been through nor do i know the effect of chemicals or job field he worked in. since i couldnt relate, i couldnt get into it. And i was a little skeptical of his reasoning because the man had lost his son. his question on whether the chemicals are the cause are understandable and it kind of seemed like he was just looking for something to blame.
his question of "why" didn't really strike me or leave an impression on me either. like why do they make chemicals and stuff. i just think its because again, i don't understand the nature of his job field and i don't know the harmful effects he goes through. if he elaborated more about his job, i think the speech would have been a little more effective. Overall, i couldn't connect to his speech or understand it well so i didn't enjoy it.

this i believe

“To be the best humans we can be” is the I believe speech I’ve chosen.  It is written by Tim Wilson a police officer and although most of it doesn’t relate to me, the ending really stuck. It kind of made me think of myself and things I try to do to be a good person. For example, I’m very aware of the people around me and I try to treat every person fairly. If there is someone on the street who asks for spare change, I lend a dollar. I open doors for people all the time and try to lend helping hands to people even when they don’t ask. It doesn’t matter if its small or big, I try to be a good guy.

Even with “offensive people” I try to be nice and don’t let anything effect me. For example, when someone says something rude or uncalled for I ignore or try to diffuse the situation in a nonviolent way. I like how he said perfection is an illusion because honestly that’s so true. Nobody is perfect, I slip up a lot in things that I do and the way I respond to some situations. However, I can try to be a better person. And in relation to my digital life I can say I was very careful not to create misunderstandings in messages I sent people or to come off as rude or uncaring. I made sure to be a person people could talk to about stuff to and a supporter. For example, some of my friends are deploying and in real life I told them to contact me online or phone if they could and wanted to talk about things going on over there. It’s a little act of kindness and I just try to be available.

I didn’t really listen to the audio, but this essay was effective because it really appealed to the ethos part of rhetoric. The story he told with the letter in his locker gave a little warmth to his essay and the conclusion brought me to his main idea. I understood where he was coming from because I too have taken these things into account. Like him, everyday I go on, I think about what I can do in my day small or big to be the best person I can be.  This speech connected pretty well with me.